I always pictured him coming soon.
I am doubtless that I'd tell my friends.. when I see him I'd know it's him.
I'd know him when he comes.
That belief never left me.
I just know it will happen.
And it will happen soon.
I was never a fan of long engagements or long boyfriend-girlfriend thingy. It's like why would I prolong the relationship if it will not work? It's like a waste of time for me. My thinking was if you really love each other, then you make it work. Love is a commitment, not a feeling. There's no justice for me in getting the heartaches of break-ups from one boyfriend to another... Well, it's just me. So, I waited.
It took years.
I started believing at 16.
He came at 24.
And he did come!
My belief led me to him.
I was never doubting, I have always known it will happen and it will happen soon. I was just 100% positive about it.
And when men came, each one has their own story, but my mind was still when I see him, the very first time, I'd know it's him. And true enough.
The very first time was like knowing him for the longest time already!
As if we were friends way back then.
The day we met, made me feel like floating... as if a miracle's happening!
He's here! He came! And I know he is the one. The person in my dreams!
He came, in white. We talked, we laughed, we went to movies on our first date! The first date!!! I must have trusted him in my heart already that I'd went to movies with him on our first date! hahaha
It took 10 days. In that 10 days, I quarreled with him, we went to a 4 hour bus trip together for him to see my mom in the province. We went to church, attended mass, held hands and after watching another movie together, as we were leaving the theater I told him he's now officially my boyfriend.
Why be shy about what you feel? hahahha.. Why go through the "What if he won't ask me out again, what if he doesn't want me to be his girlfriend?" thing - I just said what needs to be said. He's now my boyfriend. Period.
Then he left for work abroad.
I'd miss him so much.. just thinking of him will make the phone ring..
Just a thought of him would make him call me.. anytime I feel him.. in my mind.. and he'd call! Weird. But it happened.
I was full of confidence that I was making a soul connection with him that I'd tell my friends how I miss him and true enough, the phone would ring with him on the line calling me.
That was real weird, but it just made me believe in the possibility that we can be soul mates. And so, after a year, we got married and well, the rest is history.
Source: Ezine